Unfortunately some people never change. And when that happens, repeat this to yourself…
Lovers and friends can be strangers again. When they are, don’t stress, but instead put all your time and energy into something that needs to get done. Job hunt, write, read, or go outside. Do something that will benefit your goals, life, and well-being. Keep your mind busy and your plate full. And if you need some company, there are still so many beautiful people that provide enough support and love to keep your soul nourished.
Life is still beautiful. .
You make it look so easy to do.
Not a day goes by that I don’t wonder, worry, and wish for/if the next two years will be a breeze for us. The love is there. It’s survived multiple storms. It has surpassed time. Question of the year: “Are we gong to make it?”
I hate that after all this time, I STILL don’t have an answer.
The best in people is truly not hard to find. I don’t keep my enemies close for any other reason except to be kind. I’ve been told that I’m too nice, which is actually very true. I can be incredibly forgiving, although I’m learning not to let people in as much anymore after I forgive… especially those that fool me more than twice. However, overall, I believe in the good of people, and more so that everyone has good in them that they share with their world (even if I’m not included in it). I will praise you, compliment you, support you… and I don’t even need to know you very well or talk to you every day. However, I will show that love more to the people I’m closest to. And will show it even more to the people who have been consistent, loved me at my best/worst, stuck it out, and continue to stick.
No matter what happens, no matter what you do to me (or anyone else), I will always be your number one fan — even if you’re not mine. No ulterior motives. As corny as it sounds… I just want everyone to know they have purpose in this world, because (without any of us knowing) it may be their darkest hour, and they may need to hear it.
I was told that because of my future plans I’m a woman that’s “out of your league”. I never saw it that way, but I think in order to get what I want in all aspects of my life I need to start believing it.
"My mind was screaming… but my heart…"
God always brings me back to you.
This time I’m here to stay, no matter what the outcome.
2 years later and this day is still ingrained in my mind. The wound is still fresh, deep, and struggling to heal. I still fight with myself to hold back tears. My chest still hurts. Chest pains. Finding it hard to breathe. Living with the fact that I didn’t try hard enough. I’m sorry. I will always be sorry.
R.I.P. Alan, a.k.a. “Pooper”. This is officially the hardest day of the year for me to get through.
I’ve decided to turn off my Wi-Fi before I sleep, because I tend to get distracted when I see that LED-light flashing purple, white, or blue (especially purple). It’s difficult, because I love to scroll endlessly through Twitter, Instagram and Facebook before I knock-out for the night. However, I realized my brain won’t shut off unless my phone does too. This definitely helps a lot with getting a good night’s rest, and in general helped me to resist my phone, and social media in general.
I’m working on more “To-Don’t” in order to better myself. More to come. :)